The Journey

I used to hate my voice. I would sit with my small blue cassette player, recording a radio show. I would pretend to be the DJ and record the top 20 on a Sunday evening, sharing my opinions of the songs. When I played it back, I hated listening to my strong Geordie accent, but I loved what I was creating. When I was offered the opportunity to present a radio show back in 2020 I jumped at the chance. Sat in the booth with headphones on, I got to choose the theme of my show and the songs that went with it. Chatting about UFO’s and aliens, I chose songs like Spaceman, Babylon Zoo and Life on Mars by David Bowie. Sadly my show only lasted four weeks before I decided to leave. I had chosen to interview a chap from the local university about the psychedelic group he had set up. We chatted about ayahuasca and psilocybin and the healing properties. I said throughout the show I don’t advocate the use of these plants. However, a couple of days later, I was in the producers office, who felt that even though I was saying that, he felt I was advocating the use of psychedelics for healing. Oops. He offered me training so I could learn what to say and what not to say. I politely declined.

Freedom of speech is something I believe in. We were given our voices to share our words, to share our stories, not to be told what we can and can’t say. Social media platforms such as YouTube, Instagram and Tiktok have done amazing things to help people share their voices. Yet at times, they still restrict certain content. A video I created about the benefits of mugwort tea went against community guidelines on TikTok. However, I was able to put it on YouTube. There has never been a better time to share your voice with the world, and the world needs to hear your voice.

How are you sharing your voice? Is there anything holding you back? When I was doing a number of 121 healings back in 2020, the biggest thing I started to notice was how many people’s throat chakra’s were blocked. This is the main energy point which governs communication and speaking up, located on the throat. Many of us have been here before and led lives where we were killed in the past for our beliefs. A fear of speaking up may come from that. When I created my first YouTube video back in 2017, I had no idea what I was doing. I took a deep breath, hit record and put it out there. Personally, I never watch my videos back. If someone wants to give me feedback that’s great and I am happy to receive that feedback. I still don’t like listening to my own voice when I hear it, but I don’t let that stop me from speaking.

Public speaking allows me to share my story, to inspire others, to share my skills, experience and knowledge. It is something I love and passionate about, which comes across at my events. Do I get nervous beforehand? A bit, but there is something exciting and magical too about sharing your voice.

Do you have a fear of public speaking or love it?